January 2012
300 posts
I feel fucking ridiculous.
It was a matter of time, I’d always said I could see so now I’m going blind.
It was a matter of miserable time but I heard somewhere there was a cure for useless eyes.
My forehead no longer sweet with holy kisses worthy of your fiery lips.
I am trying to remind myself of all the hurtful things you did to me. Like the time I was crying about a sad movie, and you just kept pushing me off every time I tried to get you to hold me. Why wouldn’t you just hold me?
Why tear out single pages when you can throw away the book?
Come and whisper in my ear “you’re...
I am done with all of this bullshit.
Turn me back into the pet I was when we met. I was happier then, with no mindset.
What the fuck am I doing? Should I be with you or him or no one? Should I tell you that I still love you or will it just hurt me more? Why can’t all this shit just stop and everything go back to the way it was two years ago? Fuck, what the fuck do I do now?
My tum has been doing well for the past two or three weeks and of course today it decides to be upset with me. Now I really don’t want to go to class or work.
Time to go be productive and finish my laundry and shower/get ready before I have to go to school and work today…
Not too thrilled to be going back.
